_JINXED`_
10.01.1990
cursed`
_____ my wish Lists
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[x] leather corset top
[x] LEVIS skinny jeans
[x] red lenses
[x] black lipstick
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[x] YSL BABYDOLL
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[x] DAVIDOFF cool waters
[x] 'FANTASY' fragrance
[x] ANNA SUI foundation
[x] ANNA SUI blusher
[x] ANNA SUI lipgloss
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[x] LOUIS VUITTON wallet
[x] LIVING DEAD DOLLS
[x] CHIVAS REGAL 18
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[x] green iguana
[x] bearded dragon
[x] ball python
[x] milk snake
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[x] conch piercing
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[x] double tongue piercing
[x] dermal anchors on temple
[x] implants on my forehead
[x] leo tattoo on my forehead
[x] abstain from sex
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[x] one FINAL drug romp
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[x] kiss from william scorpion
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[x] get william scorpion's number
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[x] liposuction on thighs
[x] artificial dimples
[x] cosmetic surgery on eyes
[x] cosmetic surgery on nose
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[x] no more tears for mum & dad
[x] totally quitting my drug habits.
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[x] i wanna be happy again.
hmms.
during the unbearable days
i did a damn foolish thing.
10th-11th MARCH 2008
me, tan meixuan
just lost my mind.
stayed w the junkies
and ahboy at his place.
doing dope daily, E and K.
But even not reporting
to my family at all,
leaving them to worry.
mum was in malaysia
and dad's gotten left at home
all on his own.
When i didn't come back
he couldn't sleep at all.
i called to tell him i had no face
to go home as im back to drugs.
dad just said he had packed
my ultra messy room for me
and asked me to come back.
When im back
he even had food ready for me
afraid that i got hungry outside.
He didn't even reprimand me
but gentle as usual forever.
Then in my heart,
i told myself.
How could u bear to hurt
this man that loved u so much?!
a dad who forgives everything
that i've done wrong
and just hope that i change
for the better.
a mum who loves me
in her own quiet way.
i am actually very LOVED,
but yet i was blinded
by friends and drugs.
Now that i've seen through
their hardship.
i discovered that all these while,
i've been living live my way.
but i forgot, i am not just me.
i'm someone's daughter,
i don't just have my responsibility
to make myself happy.
i still have a daughter's responsibility
to make my folks happy and contented.
BEGINNING TO SLOWLY WAKE UP
AND SLOWLY GET THINGS RIGHT.
tearstaiinedd`
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